August 27th. My progress update day. What started in 2012 and was updated in 2013 and 2014, suddenly found a stop this year. Why? What kept me from sharing unlike the years before?
The visible changes. Those were what stopped me. The changes in the picture from last year to this year don’t show progress towards a “skinner” me. No they in fact reveal some weight gain.
Yes in 2015 I gained some weight. A number of variables played a role in that but to be honest, I believe my journey towards health is shifting. It took a chat with a dear friend of mine yesterday that opened my eyes. See in 2015 there was progress. It’s just not progress you would outwardly see. In the year between Aug 27 2014 and Aug 27 2015 I competed in my first federational powerlifting meet. I set the USPA GA state record in my squat and as well as meet total. I had a 45 lb pr in my deadlift. Since then I’ve seen my lifts only increase. In that time frame I also got engaged and married. In that time frame I also feel in love with RPM and am now headed to training in hopes of being an instructor. In that time frame I let go of some disordered eating habits. I still have bad days, but don’t we all. In that time frame I had probably one of the biggest achievements of them all, and it’s one you’d never see from the outside., I stopped taking diet pills. I had become addicted to them. Now though, just like in the beginning, I want my efforts and hard work to get the credit for this journey.
I don’t know where my journey is headed right now. I’m no longer fixated on a number on the scale or my clothes. What once were tools to measure success and define me, now no longer apply. My journey is health. My journey is athleticism. My journey is inspiring others to make small daily changes that would result in lifelong habits. When I started this journey, I didn’t know where the journey would lead me. It’s had it’s bumps and bruises, it’s had its detours, but at the end of the day it’s ultimately had the life God’s called me to at its foundation. This journey would be nothing without the cause of my Savior. I’m working on being a vessel He can use for as long as He’s called me to. That’s my new destination.
So here’s to the journey that’s now 4 years old. May the hard days be evident of His strength and the good days be an echoing of His grace. May my actions never cease to glorify Him and may the journey always reflect the love He shed on me.
In December I competed in my first federational powerlifting meet. I came second in my weight class and division but walked away with two PRs and two state records.
But with PRs and records, also came defeats. My competitor beat me in both my bench and deadlift.
Even with that I still walked away with a medal and as of yesterday a certificate acknowledging the success of the meet.
But what I did was just a foundation. Myself along with my competitor Rylee set the foundation for the 82.5kg weight class in the open division. My goal is to never compete again in that weight class, hoping to drop to the 75kg and then ultimately the 67.5kg class. But I hope one day someone breaks my record. Because while I set the record, my numbers really weren’t all that impressive. Someone out there is warming up with those weights.
What I wish for women who are beginning to compete, is that they would see those numbers and aspire to change them much like I look at Michelle Coile’s numbers and aspire to see my name there for a period of time. I hope women would be challenged in the gym to grow in strength and no longer be intimidated by men that would see them as weak beings. I desire to change the myth that if you lift heavy you’ll be bulky. I want women to feel strong and powerful, yet still know they can be graceful and sweet.
So I hope some female lifter in the 82.5kg USPA classic raw class reads this, sees my name and numbers and desires to replace my name with theirs. Because a record is only as good as the challenge to chase it.
After many friends began reading this book, I knew it was one I should review. No more than 3 pages in, I was already in tears knowing that this book was about to help me take the leap and make changes to live on purpose.
Make It Happen by Lara Casey is not a manual to success. It’s not a 3 step guide to greatness. It’s simply the detailed path that brought Lara into understanding her purpose and it shares the path that you can also take to understanding yours.
Through the easy to read format, the space for self analysis, and additional resources provided, Lara helps readers work through their own struggles and fears and replace them with action steps to bring progress to goals.
A key theme throughout the book is this : My Life + God’s Way= True Success. This key theme is what helped remind me that apart from God’s way, my life will never yield success.
This book is for those who are ready to live beyond fear. To apply purposely thought out action steps to their goals, and finally Make It Happen.
” In choosing purpose over perfect, the dreams God gives us may be hard because they are bigger than us. But, in Him, we are part of a whole, and we help others to know that they are too. We are never alone. We are enough. We are free.”
-Make It Happen, Lara Casey p.273
Focus on progress, not perfection.
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I recently began reading Make It Happen by Lara Casey ( review coming soon!) Through it, I’ve been challenged to face my fears, question my passions, make action steps, and structure my life in such a way as to create an environment for progress to happen, not perfection. Then I learned of the conference. I began to contempt the idea of attending.
But then I saw the cost and was defeated.
How could I, a 25 year old fiance who is in the midst of home buying and just doing life attend a conference that costs $1800?! A friend shared a possible solution.
Lara Casey was having a giveway. Could I win? Possibly. Wouldn’t hurt to enter. I could win entrance to the conference. More importantly though I could win the knowledge of how to make things happen over this next year.
I could gain wisdom on finally launching my photography business.
I’m praying that this chance would come to be, but even if it doesn’t, I know that I’m on the right track to make things happen in 2015.